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An introduction. [Jun. 4th, 2006:11:01 pm]
The Poor Man, Every Man's Religion


[Feels like: |anxious]
[Sounds like: |La Familia - Mirah]

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Henri Cartier is wonderful.

I'm Called: Erin Colleen McGuire. The only nickname I've ever had is Beanna, from my best friend. I wish I could fall in love with someone who would hold my face and call me Erin Colleen.
I was born: August 18th, I wish I'd been around in the 60s when the youth had opinions.
I live in: The little bubble of like minded people that we call Austin, Texas. It's nothing like the rest of Texas.
My spirituality: Agnostic but really my spirituality has nothing to do with any god. I want to feel a connection with the world more than anything. I admire Ahma, a spiritual guide from India who spends her days hugging tons of strangers and playing mother to the world.
My gender: Female.
My sexuality: Thus far I have only ever fallen for boys.
What makes me human: I still see some people and instantly make judgement as much as it makes me feel absolutely terrible.
Who I'm bound to fall (flat, hard, down, nose-in-the-dirt) in love with: I've decided recently that I would love to be with a man who often smells faintly of paint. Anyone I can keep up an interesting conversation. Someone with passion and charm. Funny but fully capable of discussing all the beautiful things.
What grabs me: If I see someone get yelled at hours later I may feel bad even though I'm not the person who was yelled at. Also people who do things for others, or people who are completely content with what life has given them. Happy people.
I make: Yesterday I started my first painting, I'm in love with photography, I can write music because I took music theory but I can't play any instruments, when I can't sleep I write. Poetry, prose, anything. I moderate a community for secrets.
Here's my devart: http://aspiringautumn.deviantart.com/

A few years ago I was down on the drag (a local shopping spot) and having a terrible day because some friends had blown me off and I was all alone with hardly any money.
Then a homeless man with an accent I couldn't quite place gave me a flower he had twisted out of grass.
I said "Thank you, it's so beautiul."
He said "You are."
He didn't do this for any money or alternative motives at least that's what I think.
He did it to see people smile, and I've never forgotten it.

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I can't control my face. It does the strangest things.

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I've had the same best friend since I was three monthes old and I am terrified of the day she'll leave for college more than I have ever been scared of anything my whole life.

[User Picture]From: randomflag
2006-06-05 07:28 am (UTC)
don't be scared! it will work out.
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[User Picture]From: ____casseopia
2006-06-05 07:56 am (UTC)
I don't know, I know we'll see eachother on holidays and we'll speak as much as possible I just know things are going to be different.
I never want conversations to be forced or awkward and honestly how do you restart your life without someone who has ALWAYS been there in the most literal sense of the word.
Her family will always be her family but I'm afraid I won't always be her best friend.
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From: truth_is_vital
2006-06-05 08:47 am (UTC)
I really love the bed photo(s). Good to see you here!
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[User Picture]From: ____casseopia
2006-06-05 06:47 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :D
I have two more from the same self portrait shoot that I actually like a lot more but I can't find them right now. :/
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From: truth_is_vital
2006-06-05 07:16 pm (UTC)
Losing art is the worsttt.
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From: muffinmafia
2006-06-05 10:23 am (UTC)
hi! :) you sound incredible. you brought such a smile to my face.
and i know that your friendship will reminda strong even if she's away!
i understand that it's hard, though.
take care of yourself. ♥
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[User Picture]From: ____casseopia
2006-06-05 05:53 pm (UTC)
Hahaha I'm glad I made you smile. Is it the stupid face picture?
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From: muffinmafia
2006-06-05 07:22 pm (UTC)
it was just... everything! :) your answers, the pictures, too.
heck, yeah, everything.
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[User Picture]From: contretemps
2006-06-05 07:27 pm (UTC)
oh man, i feel you on the best friend leaving for college thing. i know everything'll work out because it has to work out!
i love your stupid face picture! it is great [:
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[User Picture]From: ____casseopia
2006-06-06 02:04 am (UTC)
Hahaha thanks. :D
That face was on purpose but I make a LOT of faces on accident.
Like when I laugh really hard one eye gets squinty like there and all my smile is friggen huge. My best friend says it's 'endearing' but I think I just look retarded.
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